Today was supposed to mark my final day of my detox, but that didn’t goes as planned. Last Saturday I started to feel a little under the weather and Tuesday it hit me full force. I called in sick at work and slept the day away and that’s the day I got off the detox to enjoy some soup and over-the-counter drugs.
Hind sight, it might have not been the best time to start. At first I thought it would be a great time to start because it would help me look great for roommie’s b-day, jump start my work out routine and help me be more Zen. If I only knew that all hell would break loose, I so would have waited!
Roommie and I have been on this love hate roller coaster. I see that we are both really hurt right now and are hurting each other.
He is house-sitting for a client of his for a week and will be back at the end of the week to pick up all his stuff. YEAH! I am so relieved. It’s been over 3 months since we broke up and what an emotional roller coaster this has been.
Today another mini roller coaster came my way. Sensei-T said he could not longer be my martial art instructor if I ever thought he liked me or thought he hit on me.
To give you a little back ground. Sensei-T was Roommie high school track coach, martial art instructor and best friend for the last 12 years. When I enlisted in the military I need to learn how to do push ups and I hired a trainer at 24Hour Fitness and was assigned to Sensei-T and he introduced Roommie and I. Well, after a couple months Roommie and Sensei-T had a falling out and I was in the middle of it. Sensei-T was also having other drama in his life; his live in girlfriend of 8 years and him were breaking up. Sensei –T had called me one day and said at the end of his message that he loved me. Since he is not sensitive type of person, I took as he was hitting on me. Plus, I had never heard him tell his two step daughters or his girl friend of 8 years that he loved them. Like I said, that was just not in his character. Well, last night at work Roommie and Sensei-T get into a verbal fight (btw, they work together) and roommie brings up the past. Sensei-T thought I was still thinking that he liked me and said he couldn’t be my sensei anymore. I felt so helpless. I totally respect his decision, but was upset that this was all going down this way. Before the chatting was done he said he just need some time to pass and then we can resume training.
If only I wasn’t sick, I would so go dancing tonight to blow off some steam. Heck, I might just take some over the outer stuff and just go. And if I feel bad at the club, I’ll just drink a Hot Toddie.