Never ending battle

It's the story of my life, gain weight and then lose it. I've been noticing my eating habits and I noticed two things.
#1 There are times when I eat healthy food but go WAY over my caloric range. Just because it's healthy, doesn't mean I can eat all I want.
#2 I eat WAY too much and am an emotional eater. I eat when I'm happy, sad, bored, pissed, etc, etc.. You get my point. I can do some damage quickly.

In the last month or two I hit this weird period where I was eating like crazy. And then I would be at work where temptation is around the corner...LITERALLY!
My boss's "store" where during a graveyard shift can scream my name.

And he sells these danish pastries. I like the middle of the berry ones.

Finally my WEAKNESS...ice cream! It can be tough just being at work especially if my will isn't strong.

So finally I got a hold of myself. I was tired of my pants feeling tight, feeling guilty, my stomach shaking when I walk or the fact that I would sometimes hide my food/snacks. Really Vanessa, really??? I have the fat girl inside me that was starting to show herself, so decided to be proactive. I went through my folders and found a meal plan that speeds up your metabolism. I thought I would do that for 3 weeks to get me started.

But with that being said the day before my 3 week meal plan was supposed to start I had a moment of weakness... 2 helpings of ice cream and yogurt. and then silly me took a picture of it and Jay saw it. I was showing him a picture of some cool Costa Rican frogs from class and this was the picture next to it. He was like "WAIT what is THAT??? Go back!"

*head down in shame and cheeks bright RED!*

But I'm a 1 1/2 weeks into the meal plans... half way point and seeing results. Let the lbs shedding continue.

Greetings Banana!

Being a homeowner is a wonderful feeling. Jay and I have been busy but we have a "to do list" and a "want list." We decided to hold off remodeling the kitchen until after he graduates the academy. We hear horror stories of being out of a kitchen for months, so that is something we can't afford right now. We agreed that we are going to remodel the master bath soon. We just have to find time in our crazy schedule to pick out style of tiles, toilet, sink and cabinet. Not to mention to call the guy for a quote. Abel did great and inexpensive work at Santa's place, so we are hoping to get a deal too.

In the meantime, I finally got to a minor project that I've been wanting to do for a long time. The two times I made plans to garden it rained. In fact, it rained when I bought the plants too, but I didn't care. I just had to buy them and wait for a weekend to plant them.

This is the BEFORE! I know... the weeds had gotten out of hand. The previous owner had a mastiff and I guess he dug up holes everywhere, so they put rocks in the holes. I found that out when I was digging the holes for the new plants.
The dirt was a mixture of clay, sand and dark, black, anoxic soil. I added fertilizer and spaced out the plants. We have 3 calla lilies and 3 Iceberg roses alternatively placed.

And while I was gardening Banana was super intrigued with everything I was doing. If I was packing the soil, he would come and investigated. I'm not sure who he belongs to, but it was super cute and made me miss Angelina and Maxwell! Maybe instead of a dog (or 2), I will ask for cats. The only problem I see is there claws that scratch stuff and the kitty litter smell.

Voila... I'm done plants and evening out the soil. I placed bricks/rocks on the roses to help the plants not lean over. Once they settle in and I know they will survive, I will place little, tiny rocks.